meow

i hate it

2009-10-16T06:57:00.000-07:00

i going to have enough. i have enough of feeling that in him there is still her.. i hate it!! i dunno how long i can carry on like this..

i finally go through my Operation today

2009-10-12T10:10:00.001-07:00

extremely stressful day... on my way to the hospital, my legs turn wobbly.. guess i am to nervous... reached the surgery clinic with dar.. when my turn has come.. i have to go in with a indian nurse that i tried hard to understand every word that comes out of her mouth.. goodness.. i was asked to change to the robe. and i was brought up to level 2.. i was asked to lied down on a bed and the doc and nurses were helping me to pluck water bags to ease my hydration... and is a real painful session.. the nurse couldnt find a suitable veins... and she plucked it in.. my tears started rolling down... and it was unsuccessful, the doc came to re pluck the needle.. second time that i have to go thru this pain.. not long later i was pushed to the operation theatre.. seeing myself under 2 big lights, 6 to 8 nurses surrounded me... i couldnt stop shivering..the room was cold that my feets lay still... i saw the bed with 2 rest support for leg, i almost burst out of tears.. i was trying hard to control my emotion of fear.. the nurses and doc were struggling giving me oxygen.. as there are some machinery faults... before the operation start.. i was asked to breath in the oxygen with med that put me to sleep within mins... i was totally knocked out... the next moment when i wake up, it was 2 hours later.. i found myself in another place.. and my whole body was weak and strenghtless.. i couldnt control my movement.. everything was numb.. the moment i woke up i started to tear.. dun ask me i dunno y.. i couldnt even talk.. i was den transfered to another room.. and a very nice nurse came check up on me and offered to give me some water... she fed me with straw and keeps my lip moist... and i continue to rest.. not long later i was feeling much better and i requested to see dar.. the moment i woke up... i wanted to see was him.. the nurse ask me to change and brought me to see him.. the moment i see him... i burst out in tears... i felt secure in his arm... he helped me to get my medication and took me back... we went for haircut before we get home.. it was raining heavily and dar hugged me and sheltered me while looking for cab. it was cold and dar dried my hand and leg with his hankerchef. and when i am back i was totally knocked out until 7 plus.. my dizziness is still there... but as long as i dun do too active stuff i should be fine... i guess i getting tired now.. got to sleep .. i love u dar

I'm Backed!!

2009-10-08T10:32:00.000-07:00

i guess this blog should be deserted by now... which would be another place for my hideout.. things are going well for me... the only one thing that is bothering me will be my operation on the 12th. i dunno how to explain the messed up feeling i have.. and i cant deny i am scared.. i couldn't believe i got to face this.. and i really hate that feeling.. and recently i am worried about my granny.. heard that she is going for an heart operation soon.. i dunno how to show my concern to her.. cause we will end up arguing.. these few days i will find time to go visit her.. all the multi stress i have is laying marks on my face.. i need to stay calm.. i have to stay strong.. Stay brave!

rena

tiring DAY!!!

2007-04-23T07:52:00.000-07:00

wow wow wow wow..

2 days din slp really going to make myself a china treasure *panda*...

haha.. last night manage to get to mel hus.. veyr tired.. in the end din really catch much slp.. we were toking and toking and toking until 4.30 lo.. haha. this morning got to wake up at 7.15am to get ready to work in the end le still take cab... hahahaha... almost fell asleep during work... after work zhi hao came to find me we had dinner together then slacked ard.. until 9pm.... i headed back to mel hus.. cause i want to sleep early tonight.. keke.. no more late nightz.. 10 eye cream also cannot cure the eye bag i am going to have now.... haha.. nothing special today jus bored.. anyway birthday is comin.. dun wan to stress myself up.. jus wan to happily enjoy my 19th birthday!!! *yeah* i am glad i have so many frens celebrating for me... *cool*... that is abt it show u some of the phto i took... *i loveit*

something to share!

2007-04-22T11:39:00.001-07:00

i found out something that i knw i will not be able to accept.. but anyway the RENA now is fresh again. so let it be... lixian also deleted mylink to her as fren.. i dunno why she do that... feel like smsing her but nvm.. let it be... as long as i know i never hurt her before and i always wan to maintain this frenship.. i tried my best in all that i could...

these weeks i din have a smooth sail... alot of things happen.. dun wish to go too far.... the day before yeaterday went out w micole to chillz bar.. drank from 8 to 5am.. insane.. 2 of us drunk le la.. hahaha.. that night andy din slp.. he smses me throughout and called me when i din reply. i tink this time his phone bill going to go w flying colours...

yesterday i was surppose to move out.. was a bad day as i couldnt find anywhere to go.. in the end i went to mckenzie hostel... bad experience.. when i reached the hostel was already 12am plus.. kinda freaked out as it was so unexpectable.. over there were all guys.. blackz, china, chinese, indian, blangadesh.. when i was checking in... there is a black toking to me and stuff, i ignore... the place really very ooo looo.. like tear down building... even the reception table was many many year old.. i went to the rm i was given and one of the black followed me.. i was freak out.. and i hide in my rm the whole night.. when i was about to bath i realise it was a shared toilet and was indeed dirty and the toilet and bathrm is link with open air celing... as a ger i wont deny i am scared.. although i am not pretty but still scared lo.. so in the end i hide in my room the whole night.. actualli i was alittle down sad but i also dunno why until 1 am i started crying.. feels like someone trying to open my rm door... i tink too much.. and i not used to slp alone.. so i jus keep crying and crying... until 2 plus.. i called andy and comfide to.. really struggling.... the place is total terrifying.. is like worst then army.. not a proper blanket and stuff.. and was very cold.. i have no choice but to use my towel to cover myself.. i cant slp.. jus keep crying.. i din dare to go to the toilet until the sun rise.. today i know i cant stay there anymore the more i stay the more i more freak out.. so now i move to my gd fren melissa hus.. lucky got justin help me move my things if not i dun think i can carry so many things by myself.. now already 2.36am... none of us in the hus is asleep.. haha.. so now i am safe and sound.. i really got to catch some sleep.. nite..

.. maybe that's LIFE..

2007-04-16T10:00:00.000-07:00

tracked back past few days wad i have been doing.... when watching mid night show w zhihao at vivo.. "shooter".. nice but kinda disgusting due to explosion of body parts... oh man.. then he taught me how to drive lorry.. haha.. so happy.. the next day work again.. was kinda upset due to certain stuff so went drinking w micole and frenz.. andy called me and tell me abt his breaking off w lixian, saying he wished i could give him a chance and stuff.. i'm pretty confused.. but i have to get clear my mind.. today super tired, work full day.. mornin clinique night paramount hotel.. basically super exhausted tml have to work sk moning and paramount night.. so have to rest early.. probably update a bit of picy...

RELIEF ME!!

2007-04-09T09:47:00.000-07:00

emily is me!
nothing to hide no more.'
i called lily=lixian
i talk to her. i ask her " i guess u have already know that i know abt u and andy(eddie)" she say ya.. i told her "although i duno why is all this happening. but since it happen. there is nothing i can do, i jus hope that we can tok things out cause i dun wan to see us like that because of him. i dun wan to see us working together but feel so awkward seeing one another. cause we have to work together in future." i ask her " do u love andy?" she replied " ok la, actually i was jus playing him in the begining becoz he is a bad guy.. and also i wan to get over my ex" i was shocked. i was thinking maybe she said that to make me feel better. but is not working anyway. " i told her, dun scare me with this ans, cause i told andy dun hurt u and i also dun wish u to hurt him too.. anyway i am not here to stop ur relationship w him, jus wan to make sure we have sort thing between u and me cause i have always wanted to work w u that is y i convert to full time. so wadever that had happen i will still send my blessing to u both" she say she kinda feel bad, but now she is happy now. i glad she is now. and i hope things will work well for her, i also tell her abt i found out andy likes her very much.. she ponder but she will understand one day.. cause i see alot of chnges in andy. i told lixian." if he is willin to change for u, and if one day he decide to settle down. he will be a great husband cause he will know how to protect his love ones and i decide to change no so believed she also doesnt wan me to contac andy, so we have decide to keep this among ourselves. i know this is a hard time for me. cause i know whenever i am upset and even tears, maybe they are hugging and kissing happily. so i tell myself i dun wan to tears for this. jus accept the facts and move on. although i always say i will move on.. it's hard for me. cause andy is the who make me dare to love again. after work i went drinking w vivian again. we din drink alot only one jug but is more like singing n stuff.. so beside all this a guy actualli offered me a game of pool. so we played. actually he wanted to sing me a song but it will be too late. so i left.. sumtimes i think abt this relationship. i asked myself. " all my frens ask me to let go and move on, cause i will find a better guy. " but will i get the best endin 4 myself? or shd i jus follow my heart. too late anyway.. too late to turn back. everything is gone.. i guess i wont call him anymore.. maybe no contaction w him, i might get over faster.. i am jus afraid the day if i work w lixian and andy came to fetch her. wad am i supposed to do.. pretend nothing happen and not see him. i hope i will feel better by then. give me sumtime i will be okay. although is hard but i know he is jus a passer by in my life. he left. probably after this. i wan to learn to live a SINGLe life. --> " i will face the fact and move on, it's hard but i noe i will pull through.." i wan the rena who carry a million smile back again. i am touched by my many years fren zhihao. although we hardly contact but he take care of me all the while.when i am down, he sms me from taiwan " love yourself like the way i love u, i will find u when i am back" i'm very touched really. he made me stronger each times. i will learn to live better and be a better person in future and i will not make the same mistake i made before. today zhihao back in singapore but he din forget the promise and he sms me! he is busy now , still in his office.. but we will meet up as soon as he is free. i would like to thanks all my frens for stayin by my side all this while -> micole, melissa, eunice, yilong, justin, sarah and zhihao. without u guys i dunno how am i going to pull through this one month. i love u all..

to lixian" although al this things is happening. i wish u all the best. i cant bare to hate u . in fact i also wan the best 4 u, take care.. happy workin in future days to come"

...... rena will be back again .....

emily is dead

2007-04-08T09:17:00.000-07:00

i have a best fren call Emily she is 19.. she is a ger who carries a million smiles with her all the time. straight-forward her didnt make her well like. but she still lives on. one day she met a guy who works the same place as her. his name is eddie, he is 22. he wasnt a decent guy as seem in fact he was a good talker than wins young ladies heart. when emily know him, she didnt like him much. he kissed her on the 2nd day they met, while she fell asleep on the bus and he claim was a bus jerk. she was angry but she kept quiet. she din believe in this guy will like her till he stick by her side for 2months. those days were gd. 2nd day of eddie's national service life. he called her and cry saying that he really love her. emily melt for him and they started on the relationship. during his bmt times was tough as they were unable to meet up or even tok. but every precious mins and sec was one of their best time. eddie told emily "if we can struggle through this BMT, we will build a strong foundation" she believed. they were really loving and understanding to one another. they are TAURIAN! they know exactly wad they wan. thing went well.. till eddie had to forcus to his work. maybe emily wasnt mature enough to understand the importancy. but after explanation. she tries to understand. emily was a stubborn ger and so was eddie. but both of them were soft-hearted. their quarrel will always settle within 1 hr. never more then tat. he loves her. no matter how tired he will be there for her. once emily was sick! she knee on the floor against eddie's bed. he didnt leave her alone, he get a towel and make her shower,dries her hair for her, ly her down to rest, serving water and makin sure she is okay. she love him. She get the best for him. do thing to his convience. shop without getting sumthing for his needs. never lie to him. they were total in LOVE. emily's stubborness was getting bad as all she wanted was attention. but after sumtime. eddie stop understandin y she is doin all this. he started to lie to her abt his hangout. maybe he jus dun wan to hurt emily. emily din understand too and she make a fuss too.. one day emily initiate to leave him. cause she felt being lied all the time. she din understand. eddie agreed.. but both eddie and emily love one another very much. but the stubborness headed them to no where. few days after they broke up. eddie got up with Emily's colleague, Lily,22. Lily was a ger that emily respected so much and they were so happy working w one another. eddie told emily that he still loves her and wants to patch. she's happy! this is the day u have been waiting! she wants her eddie to come back to her life and love her.. but she found out he was in a realtionship w lily for a month durin the period of break up. Emily loves her fren. Emily loves Eddie. Emily doesnt know wad to do. she told eddie to love lily and not to hurt her. Eddie say he's confused. He is willing to let lily go and will promise to treat emily better. Emily dun wan him to hurt lily. she rejected him. she know she dun wan to hurt lily. she was sad but she couldnt cry, she went to drink w her frenz. i tot she could feel beter. but she didnt. Emily is hurt but she couldnt tears. her heart breaks but she was blank and numb. she did not know wad to do.. she rather she cries out then to keep it tight in her. she jus couldnt let go. the next day emily went back work which is where she met eddie. she missed him! she missed him badly. he called eddie but he din dare to picks up cause he was with lily. emily is breaking down. her frens told her to confront lily but she dun wan. she dun wan to hurt lily. but did lily treat her as fren all this while. lily hurt her. in the end Emily decide to tok to lily. she dun wan to hurt this frenship although she dun understand y lily do that. she decide to give her blessing to eddie and lily. eddie didnt understand n scolded her. Emily is confused. she doesnt wan to see the way eddie treat her this way. he never treat her this way. this moment she chose to leave. she dun wan to hurt again. she is changing her no. so she can start afresh. Emily jia you. u can walk out of the hole u have digged for urself. u are going to be a better person. emily wans to say this to eddie: "i never regret loving u. although u hurt me. i still love u, i wan the best 4 u. without u may not be the end of my world but i wan to see u happy. pls take care, eddie" at this moment emily needs alot of courage to stand up and move on. send her blessing.

i dunno how the ending will be, but i hope it will be a gd one for her. emily jia you!

Rena WAKE UP!!!

2007-04-06T06:45:00.000-07:00

finally get home to rest after so many late nightz.. really PANDA le la... *sob* morning wake up and went to work.. i was tired and not realisin my eyes were super red.. but yet i know i have alot of things to do and account for. getting to work wasnt that tiring, knowing i have to clear last night mess and shit was super tirin8g.. the worst thing was my colleague din wash the pail and there were 2 zhang lang inside lo.. *damn*.. i washed the cloth for 15mins plus.. not realli busy jus shagged. after my lunch, my colleague went to eat.. she took half an hour extra and without telling me. but haix nvm. too much thing to be affected.. after work was trying out sumthing different in make up so... i wore the lastest lipstick from chanel.. there was one adver abt " do u love my lip?.." sumthing like that.. my fren says it was sexy for me.. then i change my makeup to gothic.. was a super dark lipstick that comes along.. k la.stop here.. too tiring

LESBIAN nite!!!

2007-04-05T11:56:00.000-07:00

wow!!! have been drinking and drinking day after day.. super shagged!!! now is 2:57am.. jus came home from lesbian nite.. first time seeing so many butches... haha.. they were kinda daring... one of them really take off his pant and was wearin a mens brief.. *gosh* in front of so many ppl and that includes guys.. haha.. then i was so crowded till i lacked of oxygen.. but grest experience anyway.. i din really drink alot is more abt dancing... i dance throughout my enter and till exit.. haha.. the ppl there were daring one another to french kiss the "guys" for 3 secs and stuff.. probably not my style yet.. haha.. i dun mind dancing w them but that was the extremed!!! i saw melissa french kissin the ger .. i stunned!!! anyway she really doesnt look like those type... i wonder wad her bf feels.. if get to know all this.. anyway.. we are out there to enjoy...

share w u last nite.. i was off so it was kind of moody.. knowing that someone is goin to put some tatoo.. which i hate so much.. i know i wouldnt wan to contact him as he know i hate it to see him do all those stuff.. telling me to patch and yet still hurting me.. i know i have to let go.. i decide to go drink alone initially and decide to ask micole to come along,. so she brought a few fren along.. we went there to sing and drink and play bluff.. oh man.. micole bf was such a cheat.. haha.. after drinking i was kinda high.. when i reached home.. everything came out for i have over stuff food into me.. haha.. so the first meal was like at 12 am plus came off straight after i get home.. bt i wasnt drunk cause i woke up this morning i din get hang over...

guess i stop here is already 3.09 and i am working morning tomolo.. have to get some sleep before i get a bad time frm my in charge.. ppl do take care.. see ya...

love eeyorena

Great Experience

2007-04-03T06:34:00.001-07:00

today i went to help out at RBS(Royal Bank of Scottland) they are dealing with a F1 racing car. super nice la the car.. cannot stand it.. haha.. computerise racing involved and top 3 result will get to race real car.. kao.. * so envy * so far the fastest result is 1min 13secs. super fast la... my highest is 1min 25secs. sitting in the F1 is super fantastic. beside recordin result i have met 5 germans. one of them very handsome and cute man..* opps sound so typical * his name is micheal 20 years old onli. haha. another one is jimmy.. pretty interesting too.. they are all very very nice people.. really had a great time, although is long hours but i know is worthwhile.. after work when to meet my colleague jus reached home not long.. super tiring.. pic not w me yet.. show u all next time'

few days back boi and his gerfren visit me.. haha.. boi hair kao.. really jus wake up one lo... but see him very happy.. he got a joyful look.. i went to watch movie with zhi hao few days back. we went to watch stomp the yard.. new show.. something similar to take the lead. i beta write
down before he forget again. haha.. now he is at taiwan.. hope he is doing well over there..

*toothbrush was supposed to be a hope, i keep holdin back the toothbrush but i realise that there is no point keeping anymore.. toothbrush i will throw it away and start all over again. i give up*

yeah internet back

2007-04-01T10:31:00.000-07:00

well... seems i have long gone for sometime. finally i am back to bloggin.. actually all thanks to zhi hao.. keke.. too much to start from maybe show some picy. recently have been drinking some are taken at the pub... comment yah!!!

i'm trying hard to get back HERE!!!

2007-03-09T11:24:00.001-08:00

it's been Awhile i guess i have somthing to announce!! I'm Single le!!! although is a upsetting news but i must tell myself that i have to pull through this crisis. 25th of feb is the day i broke up andy, since then i have been ill for 2 weeks... that day i called lester, he came down to accompany me with one of his fren Yilong. lester bought me CHOCZ!!! so happy but i have sore throat. :'9 we went to east coast to eat mac that day then they came over my place to stay over. we chat for awhile then abt 4am lester knocked off.. so left me n yilong. yilong say he want to see sunrise so i accom him.. we were there at 530 we sat down and chat and realise the sky has brighten up at 7am.. missed the sun.. hahaha.. then went to ask lester wake up for home...
next day i went pub with yilong and both of us drank alittle.. i reached home 1230 but couldnt shut my brain off.. i onli manage to rest at 6am. sat i met yilong again this time we went clubbing with his fren we also celebrated his birthday for him...*happy birthday* was rather an upset day cause my mind is still andy.. i reached home by 1am... onli manage to sleep at 4am. sunday micole ask me out so i went wine bar with her... drank alittle more and headed home at 3am.. onli manage to sleep at 6am. continuously 3 day i have been drinking and drinking..,. coughing and coughing.. who knows... i was really lonely and i noe all i needed was frens.. so i end up disturbing lester and yilong.. felt kinda bad cause yilong onli know me for a short while but yet he have to accom me all the time.. these few DAYS i keep forcing myself to work although i was terribly sick... till today i finally met andy again... he help me moved my things to seb house.. and i know he have a new gf already.. it was a hurting one but i know i have to let go... i was firm with him to make him leave me.. but in the end i broke down to tears.. rena are u yourself anymore?> now i am at seb hus with companionship of lester and seb sleep at the living room with me.. now both of them sleep le.. left me alone stilll blogging guess i have a catch some rest le.,, good nite rena!!!

SORRY

2007-02-19T08:29:00.000-08:00

so so so so so sorry!!! i am having some difficulty w my internet access.. pardon me i will be BACK!!!

new me!
nice?

Great day

2007-01-04T08:52:00.000-08:00

Good morning baby eeyorena

something great to share today...
based on EXperience...

here it goes...

Experience is Personal. it cant be created by ad. it is not something that happen in the pamphlet or magazine. Experience is abt people. example! let say we r selling products... people can buy products from anyone n anywhere. if the moment that happen between u and another are genuine n personal, a relationship is created, the experience is memorable. The experience is yours, what u experience is important to your success- your energy, style, and how u feel abt urself is part of everything u do. if u personally not confident, feeling good, the very things that only you have to offer just wont shine through. but remember each day is yours to create- opportunity as a way to not only reach your daily goals, but to also express and create who u are. through this , every experience that creates both your personal and professional success... hope through this message from me will bring u a better success in future career fren!!!

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today i went to work at sengkang. as usual met my beloved colleagues.. especially eunice.. it's been quite sometime i havent being seeing her... miss her!!! after work reached home getting myself online was a luxury man!!! haha.... was tokin to one of my fren... he told me alot abt himself n his relationship obsticle... i was very glad that he gave his trust to me.. but hope through my hearing n advise will enlighten him.. *all the best yah*.. sometime i am very thankful to god that i have so many wonderful frenz w me!!! i love them all!!!

plans for tomorro.. meeting lester parrot to get some stuff from him.. then evening meeting justin for dinner and go Shopping.. that is abt tomorro.. keke.. tomoro off.. so muz relax myself... keke...

` to one of my fren that i havent met him before, tokin before, impression before.. but he have been very nice in greeting in all occasion and making the effort insending me cute messages.. guess this time he have to go NS.. i wish him all the best yah! dun worry.. i will be there to hear ur complaint.. haha... oOps forgot to intro name--- Yong... haha that is all i know abt him... keke.. take care alright.. hope to meet u in real person sooon!!!

love eeyorena

this picy is taken on our last gathering since we finished school..

2007

2007-01-03T10:28:00.000-08:00

* Happy New Year 2007*

-Special to My boyfren
` andy- thanks for giving me the best of all! i love u

- Specially for all my DArlinz..
`Sebrina, Sarah, Gina, Saliha, Ellis, Jasmine, Lester, Raimy, Jeremy, HAndsome, Hongkong, Curry puff head, Romie, Gary, Justin Tai... n etc... too much to rmb.....

-Specially to my loving colleagues..
`Eunice, Lixian, Shu ying, Cecline, Yvonne, Melissa, Pauline, Jane, Jasmine, Germaine, Milo, Donavon, Christina, Christine, Zhi mian, Vincent, 3rd Sgt..etc...

-Specially for My Fullsupported Fren
`Justin Goh- for always been there for me.. even to the extreme of accompanying me during mid nightz.. thanks so much

-Specially to Long frenship
`Lihan, Hubert - thanks for keeping me in ur mind n always never fails to greets me in special occasion

-speciAL TO x-church frenz
`xavier's Grp [central christian church],
Sebrina's Grp [paradise church]

--------------------too much to thanks-----------------------

Sorry TO all my Babies!!!
I know u all have been trying super hard to contact me as mine uncontactable...
i'm really sorry... was working my life out and miz out all my beloved frenz...
thnks for the coming event 060107 that i wasnt left out...
i so missssssssss u all dudez.. n i knw u all miz me too... *keke*

hey sharin abit more on my big events.

Xmas i was at orchard being attacked w party spray n bubbles w my bf...
was kinda cool but bad news was clothing were stained...

New year wassnt a gd one that i landed in parkway during mid nite alone n thank to this special fren of mine who actuALLI came to accompany me, Justin!!!! thanks...

last year wish was to maintain this relationship n to carry on to this year!!!

this year resolution!!!

Family
i really hope everything will be better, so that i will have less things to worry.. n hope i can moved out by myself provided i have a stable income..

career
i have somehow decided to change brand from clinique to clarins.. sorry really trying hard to tidy up my time for rest... due to better prospect i have decided to move to clarins durin feb...

Studies
on well... as everyone knows my result is really bad that i myself not very sure whether i can get to poly as i think i will try apealling... *blessme!!* i hope i can get to TP!!!!

Relationship
be blessed that andy was 80% accepted by my father.. n i really pray i can loved n beloved for long... keke.. jus pray we can last.. n less arguements...

Self
please gif me back my spirits!!! spiritually LOW!!! too much stressed that i fell into depression... lucky i saved myself back... amen.... get more rest!! over tiring myself!!! stay happy importantly SLIM DOWN

Frenz...
trying hard to salvage some time to do some catch up w my frenz.. sorry i really didnt mean to left u all out.. i love u alll... remember?... hahaha!!!!!
k thAt all abt today...

updating my picy!!!

Dying me

2006-11-29T16:52:00.000-08:00

Havent been bloggin for sometime.. time to get back.... recently too stress... too many things to be handled alone... anyway long story....

yesterday i mornin trying so hard to look for my younger sister because she did not go home last night... spend all my time in school calling her frenz... but finally i found her.. bad thing is that i supposed to work and i forgotten my shoe.. so i went back home at 4pm and get myself change n make my way to paragon.. sales wasnt tat good.. but did some catch up w some of my frens.. i was so tired and i recieve another shocking call that my sister ran away again.. i have to keep calling and calling... found her... but i was too lost to concentrate on my work.. i went to close my sales when i havent even keyed in my sales... was kinda lectured by my store manager... i went to the toilet n left my phone there... forgotten... luckily i fouund it back.. and by then my phone already flood with calls... i was supposed to accompany my elder sister as i know she have lots to say abt her first day of work... we were supposed to meet at dhoby ghaut. i was there abt 9.45pm... n waited till 11pm then she appear... like wad was expected... she cant take it... *smile*.. my bf kinda angry wif me tat i havent get home yet.. n he ended my call... *haix* when i was at paya leba waitin for bus... a girl next to me cry.... i dunno why she is crying ..i gave her a pack of tissue and i headed towards the bus.. unexpectally she board the same bus as me.. she keep cryin n cryin.. n i think i really feel for her... i din dare to approach her as i think .. i might scare her.. she missed her stop and had to walk a long way back.. my mind keep tellin me shd i walk with her back... but guess wad.. i didnt... i dunno.. maybe i am jus useless... *haix* i reached home at 12am.. my smart daddy knows i have eat my dinner and get my a coconut herbal chicken soup.. *soo sweet of him* after eating i get myself washed up and ready for bed.. i laid dwn on my bed but yet i cant sleep... i manage to slp at 3am n have to wake up this mornin at 7am..*tired*

today no work after school also no idea where to go... haix... dinner alone again... *so LONELY*... *.:~_~:.* anyway i am in MDP class... supposed to finished up my flash project.. jia you!!! i pray everything will be alright....

ILL ME

2006-11-20T15:17:00.000-08:00

sori havent been bloggin due to SICK!

thursday morning i actuali vomited in the morning and also during my test in class.. i was in great pain and was send to hospital by ambulance... was indeed a bad day that i suffered bad pain from my stomach.. after reaching home.. i keep vomiting till friday night.. i lost appetite and keep vomiting.. i was so sick with myself that i was frustrated with myself.. friday night i felt better and my bf came over to visit me.. and that was already 12am.. he stay at my place accompanying me until 1.30am... and that night past.. sat i manage to eat a proper meal but super little... i cant image i ate so little.. i went over to andy's place cause his parent cook for me.. we went to walk ard in suntec n gt myself a Jacket from topshop... *happy* then help my daddy celebrate his birthday.. was upset with my younger sister as promised to come back to help my daddy to celebrate.. she din turn up... andy and my went to catch a mid night movie... but due to my medication i was too drowsy to watch and ended up sleeping on his shoulder till 2am... he sent me home and i rested my day... i felt nausea now and then.... sunday i accompany him till he books in... i missed my lunch and manage to get some sandwich for dinner.. but i almost vomited again... haix... *Lord i jus pray that u will make me feel better and get those terrible pain away from me.. in jesus name i pray amen*.. today i came to school... my day pass well.. but alittle stone... overall okay.. tonight i have to go visit my elder sister and her baby at hougang... long travelling again!!!

May God Be with Me

2006-11-15T10:30:00.000-08:00

*mummy... u are not going to take me away from DAddy*
u neglect me when i was 5 because in u, u onli see Cash. 3years later u want to take custody of me in order to work for u. now 13years later u wan me to work bookie to help u.. when i in need..*where are u?!* u said u love me.. did u do ur part as a mother... i keep telling myself to forgive u... but u always let me down.. is it all your children u gave birth to, to be your slave or money tree?... this money so important to u tat u bear to leave the 6 of us in dump... please Tell me.... *is it fair to us?*

yesterday i was supposed to go back to indonesia w my mum... but in the end i didnt.. think abt wad she said makes me boil... i met up with andy.. we fell out... but now we okay le.. send him to camp. took 2hr plus to and fro back from boonlay.. reached my hus area at 10pm.. was toking to Magdalyn... heard abt AH meng that makes me shiver... but somehow or rather i still wonderin is he in better condition now... it was a stressing day yesterday.. but i'm glad daddy is with me... cause i know daddy still loves his daughter.. cant sleep last nite... till 1.45 to 2am.. morning super HEADACHE... supposed to go jogging... but din manage to... reached school.. lester scold me for not telling him i went oversea yesterday.. *sorry for not telling.. haha... but i believe the rest will tll u * thanks for makin me realise that i'm remembered... today i telling myself.. a brand new days... i still have Frens who cares for me... =) anyway today should be a great day!!

Eeyorena

Cruecial time over

2006-11-12T16:30:00.000-08:00

* STress No More *
--------------stressline over------------------

finally i can sleep in peace... travel with smile... eat without frown... no late nights in school... no missing of meals... no deadline.... no more......

------------wonderful Lifestyle again------------------

havent been blogging.. due to Stress!

now the Eeyorena is back>>>>

start from thursday night?

Sleepless.... rushing my cakebox... i do until 3.30am... was too tired to concentrate on measurement... so i decided to go rest... guess wad.. i am tired but i cant sleep... i lie down on my bed with eyes open.. so wash up and continue my packaging until 6.00am.. Finally i have done...*i was glad i am not the one stay up late... Justin stayed up too, haha.. iam not lonely* i rushed to bed on 7am.. but woke up at 8am... rushed to bugis to meet my classmate.. we went to do printing... i finished my printing then ask sebrina to bring my project back to terrez.. i ate my breakfast at 2pm then i rushed to work straight after i finished... sooooo Tired... but sale kinda good... over hit my target 300 plus... *happy*... finished my work at 11.30plus,.. reached home at 1am.... too tired to get myself dinner... so went to sleep... saturday i have to work 12pm at sengkang.. drag my tired body to get ready for work.... haha......

saturday.. sales SUPER good.... finished work at 8.30pm... decide to go Hougang to visit my sister and baby.... *miss the baby*.. fortunately i saw my mum, and my new sibling Amanda... my mum going back to indonesia on monday,... left the poor amanda in singapore... haix... manage to tok to my sister.. welll guess she is doing fine,... left her hus at 11.30.. reached home last night 12am... sleep at 1am i guess.... this is how i pass my week end.. *sigh*

today bf book out,.. he havent been sleeping.. nw sleeping at the sofa... me leh? haha.. blogging.. chatting and keeping myself update tat someone's birthday is coming.. guess who.. some one from my class... *L*i*S... sure noe one la... peeps guess u know wad to do... esp Gina, Sarah, Saliha, Jasmine....keke.... k la.. shall stop here... hope my luck remains... *bless all my frens*..

- Eeyorena -

Excursion !!!

2006-11-09T22:31:00.000-08:00

hmmm... sorry was super duper busy recently that i didnt have any spare time for blogging.. here i come...

well.. M8 really drained my 1/2 my blood from my body.. yesterday was the worst day i ever had.. i was rushing my flash and M8 at the same time that cause me to have Bad headache and feel like puking.. i missed my dinner due to lost appetite.. *how to eat when i am so worried* couldnt sleep well in the night.. could sit still for a second.. i left school abt 8.45pm... took a cab to toa payoh to pass cecilia my bf's qualification cert for application of university.. i reached home at 10.30pm.. washed up and stuff.. and is already 1.30pm... tossed and turn for a period of time... i woke up to read some bible... *LORD be with me, AMEN*.. this morning, met up my classmate to go to bras plaza to print my stickers.. then rushed back to school to fiished up my flashed project..

today we have an excursion...
*awesome!!*
we went to kranji war memorial and took some picture... *picture not uploaded.. coming soon* heard alot of history on WW2.. *so touching* when u hear the tour guide say u can really feel the pain the soldiers went through.. and we saw the tomb of Sir Benjamin Henry Sheares and Sir Yusoh Ishak.. i was deeply impressed with the verse

*They Died For All Free Man*

*Their Names Liveth Forever More*

----show u the picture when it is uploaded-----

i took alot of pictures... really learnt alot today...

2nd destination we went to Kent Ridge Park..
was raining so we didnt get down to walk aaround but we saw the machinery they used and the trip up was indeed sloppy...

Last destination we went to Labador park
we walk ard to see the tunnels and places where they replenished their bomb.. haha... we took some interestin picture down here... and the best thing that could happen was... Raimy ask me to take picture with him under the tree.. guess wad happen.. he hit the tree and ran away and i got myself wet due to the rain drop landed on the tree.. *thanks raimy*

Sometime Amazing Happen today
when we saw the rain starts coming down.. i started praying and God is so great that when we reached the destination.. the rain eventually stop and when we got on the bus it started rain heavily...
*God, u so GREAT!!, praised the lord!! amen*
now still in school doing my project M8.. gtg .... nite...

Eeyorena

bad bad day

2006-11-06T23:11:00.001-08:00

last night i have a fren came over my place.. he said he have nowhere to go so he came over my place... we watched tv... then i starts to get tired after a whole day of exercise.. eventually i fell asleep on my bed.. *sorry fren!!!* then he left my house abt 10.30pm... when i reached home i have to tok to bf... but i was so tired tat, i jus hold the phone on my ears and half asleep... but soon later i slept... this morning came to this Stressing school.... *ahhhahhhah* then have my DAT lesson and was trying to do my animation of logo... Sarah help me out as known that my 3D suxzzzz!!! *thanks Sarah* first thing that happen in class is that BOI and Graham heard frm our classmate that Joel badmouth them.. then boi and Graham went to complain to Mattewx2 and section head.. jus nw was having meeting... *bad new!!!*... anyway now i have to rushed my work.. cause later got to go off early for work... today at Paragon... haha.. miss my frenz there.. k that all...

Eeyorena

2006-11-06T23:11:00.000-08:00

weekend special

2006-11-06T15:04:00.000-08:00

* weekEnd happening *
although there is good and bad.. but overall i'm okay..

Saturday

met up my boyfren we went to orchard cine leisure and get movie tickets for *Flushed Away*. went t0 Wisma and taka to shop around... we took some pictures too... *Cool*.. then we went to Topshop to look around... manage to try some clothes out... then we went to catch the movie... the graphics are nice but storyline still okay.. common~.. then we went to slack around.. then went over my place to meet my daddy... so far so good... daddy kinda likes him... he stayed at my place until 1.30am... ZzzZzzz...

sunday

daddy ask me to go and pass my granny some cash for my sister allowance... so i make my way down to bedok... the first thing i came in she started yelling at me... y? because my dad wants me to ask my sister to go back home... she curse and swear as usual.. but one thing she say that really hurts me that i walk out of the house.. i jus cant stop crying... i took a cab down to my bf house.. the things she said keep going round and round my head... although i was laughing at the silly thing he said... but my tears keep rolling down.. why did my sister do that to me... i am already too busy with school and stuff.. she still can pretend nothing happen... not the first time... my bf allow me to clean his Favourite Jersey and my mascara messed up his jersey... i felt bad... but he really cares for me... then went over to his place his mum cook noodles for me... we went to the market to walk alittle.. then we we went home to watch *i'm not stupid 2* haha.. help him packed his army bag then sent him off to camp... last night i trys to finished my log book... slept abt 2am....

this is picture my bf took when i was crying. *sadistic* but look okay. quite nice..

This morning!!!

i woke up at 5.45am.. i went for a mornin Jog and did some workout then get some breakfast and make my way to school... first lesson we didnt do much actualli.. then we had my SW lesson,.. played netball... super tired la.. after a whole day of exercise... now having MDP lesson... so HOT!!! like suana... * stop here then HELPHELP! where is the Aircon?*

Chaoz...

great Testimonial

2006-11-03T19:50:00.000-08:00

*i recieve a compliement from a customer yesterday when i was working.. and i HIT my target!! awesome!*

sleep very late last night and woke up late in the morning.. then daddy send me to school *yippy* keke... then go for the morning class and eventually did nothing.. then we went for lunch.. hey next friday our class will be having an "so-called outing" at the swimming pool games!!! ... haha.. it was brought up durin cryrano lesson.. after tat i went to COT to do my M8.. but sad thing is that i can download front.. but good thing is ALEX *Kind sOul* lend me his laptop to do... and i finally i done 3/4 of my work.. hahah.. this time terrez is gng to loosen the rope.. haha... at least i feel much better.. if not my white hair is gng to start again... keke..

*I LOVE U JESUS!!!*

now is already 7.44pm.. now accompanying lester.. so poor thing he doing his work alone at COT... so pei him for awhile... anyway going home soon.. havent been gettin alot of rest.. and i getting more n more pale... How ? haha .. no blood le la.. M8 suck all my blood!!! keke.. *rena, okok M8 is almost over* .. anyway day was good... lead the grace for lunch today... haha.. was alittle screwed becoz Dino was there and i abit shy la.. but overall it came out well..
and one more thing.. afternoon.. was in school trying to do my DAT storyboarding.. so stay at the cafeteria1 to do from 2.40 to 7.15... and special thanks to Gina and Saliha for being so Nice to Pei me till i complete.. and also helpping in Cutting.. keke.. Love you girls!!!... *muack* keke.. k la.. shall stop hwere really need to go home le... bye..

*winkz*

*Eeyorena*

injured me

2006-11-02T23:51:00.000-08:00

Share with u guyz bt the credits i earn last night.. eventually toking to Justin and realise he didnt manage to celebrate his birthday! *so sad* then i decided to get something for him! so i left to get the cake then met up sebrina. we make our way to Justin's place. was rather a BIG SURPRISE for him... haha.. but i'm glad he is Happy! keke... we Took a cab back to my place with my fren Louis, he lend me him Labtop. so we did our M8 over my place... wa.. reached my place at 1am.. was already very exhausted. we bath and get ready to do our work.. i was kinda tired then was asked to accompanied him to go down to get some tibits. i agreed.. unfortunately, i tripped and fell.. eventually injured my knee and hand.. but still okay la.. jus alittle pain!!! then we did our work about 4plus... i was too tired that i knocked out.. hahaha.. *sorry* haha... then this morning we woke up kinda late then we make our way to school. had our lunch and make our way to class.. stay for an hours plus... i'm gone to be no where... *sorry Girls... left u guys w/o a word.. * later got work at Seng Kang ... haix.. so tired!!! hahaha.. no prob got to go...

bad Day

2006-10-31T23:26:00.000-08:00

Announcement~
*Happy Birthday Justin Tai*
Hey though i dun really noe u for long... but nice noeing u :) ... hope u enjoy this day as it is a special day for u.. Enjoy and take care!!! smile always...

*Eeyorena*

yesterday! started school late. but i left school early cause have to rush to BIshan to Work.. sales was awesome!!! keke.. target was low and i hit my target.. met Eunice.. had dinner together.. but was abit stress cause got to rush abit of my paperwork and helping Fiona to do her paperwork too.. is gd to help! hehe.. then took a 1hr 20min bus home.. was already super exhausted...

back today! had a terrible time waking myself from bed this morning.. cause last night waiting for calls until 1.30 plus! *panda Eyes coming out le la :( * today i went for my basic theory test.. Flunk it! nvm... this is my first try.. *pat on my own back!* haha.. then came to school... having lesson... now supposed to do my M8.. yet blogging away *hey rena where ur discipline go to?* recently i very stress until white hair starts to grow le.. i started to do funny things.. duno y.. Losing myself!!! *God saves me* but okay la.. as long as i wont go to the extend to hougang Chalet can le... today got to stay in school until 10 or 11pm to do my M8!! *Jia You Rena, dun give up wor* *speak to GOd*

~EeYorena

important to announce

2006-10-30T14:01:00.000-08:00

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Friday

No Skool... when to meet up my boyfren then accompany him see Specialist at ALenxander Hos.. then we went to my house to switch off the cooker.. almost explode man.. haha.. luckily rush back in time.. but house also got the 'Chao Ta' smell... *Pengz*.. my guy went to office after that.. i rest at home and do some house chores while waiting for Justin to call me to meet him for Dinner.. i met him up at 8pm, suntec .. then we went to carl's Jr to eat.. then i went to meet up my daddy at Joo Chiat to pass him house key then went home to change.. went to 'Chiong' with germaine n fren... unexpectally that her frens are all guys.. so ended up 5 guys and 2 gers.. haha.. we went to Double O.. but change enterance age to 21 for ladies... so we decided to go DXO but very boring.. final decision we went to MOMO... songs wasnt that fantasic.. dance for awhile find it boring so go back w my bf... Nitez

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Saturday

met up my bf then we went to parkway to walk ard. then we went to SUntec.. watch movie.. *the Guardian*.. super nice.. i recommand ppl to go watch... the predicts for the ending was right.. the rundall DIed.. *so SAd*.. we went to have dinner at my hus market then sent me back.. this night i sat beside my father for sumtime... and finally decided to tell my daddy abt andy... Guess wad.. He agreed to my Relationship *yeah* isnt that a Good news.. haha.. was so afraid tat he would reject it.. anyway he is the first guy i actually shared to my father... next weekend andy will be meeting my father... *pray HArd*... nitez...

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Sunday

morning woke up.. sweep the floor.. packed the hus.. Mopped the floor... Do my laundry.. was already 12plus.. took a cab over to my bf hus then follow him to cut hair.. *haha* NS life again... then we eat breakfast, look ard then go home bathe and went to Tampines to shop ard... we went home and get ready for his bookin time.. his parent brought us to PArkway to eat steamboat then his father sent me home... i unpack my clothes from my luaguage and did some ironing and laundry... tok to Andy on the phone before he go to sleep.. we actually ended our call at 11.30pm.. cause i wanted him to rest more.. ard 12pm he called me again.. he said he cant sleep and miss me alot.. *He so Sweet*.. we chat for awhile then he is back to his LALa land.. i cant sleep until 2am.. ZzZzzzZZz...

[- Today -]

woke up in the morning still doing Laundry then get ready for school.. was late for school dou.. haha.. lesson was great.. thing went well.. saw Sebrina Came back from Thailand with her Fantasic hair.. and some tibits along the way.. now having Cryrano class.. going off soon... Great DAY!!!!

LOoove YooOUu

*Eeyorena*

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important to announce

2006-10-29T21:20:00.000-08:00

i wonder.....

2006-10-25T23:47:00.000-07:00

something important to do first..
" Dear GOD i pray that u will take good care of Sebrina and her family on the trip to thailand. God your daughters and son are so close to you and needed your faith in them. please watch over them for their safe trip to and fro from thailand.. in Jesus name i pray... AMEN "

so Blessed that the sky is clear from Haze... at least i wont feel the headache and dry eyes anymore.. *winkz* basically was kinda stress due to m8 project as i am still struggling.. although was having a hard time here.. but i am not going to give up *jia you rena* today was gd met up my fren to have breakfast then go for lesson.. as usual... then we have break time... and we sat at the WRONG table.. y because.. we are facing sebastian and frenz... facing them was still alright but sebastian keep looking over to our table.. but like i say to my frens it's his eyes.. i cant stop him from looking.. we had a great time having lunch then now we are back to Graham lesson... now we are doing flash... now i am thinking wad i shd do for the project... shall end here... *LOovee yOoouuU....*

Great Day

2006-10-19T16:04:00.000-07:00

Hmmm.. is time to share some stuff with u guyz.. hmm.. basically days ago i had sum problem with my classmate Jolene Tan n her Boyfren Sebastian. We actually had a Quarrel when i started to call her bitch. thing sort out well after that, knowing that we will not call names again. after that we had our 3 weeks holiday and during the holiday, Sebastian called me, asking me why did i call Jolene bitch. actualli i didnt wan to respond anything to him until he told me that he was piss off because Jolene going clubbing during the mooncake festival and was telling me that he jus wan to know why did i called her that. and i asked him.. is it Jolene ask u to call he say NO, he asked me did Jolene called Veron (jolene so called best fren) bitch.... i say YES, she told me about Veron saying that she very slut bitch and any guy in clubbing also can have one night stand w her. than we ended the call.. but i know sumthing is amiss... so i sms back to Sebastian~ It seems like a Plot during the conversation. He called me back and start telling me about how stress he is becoz of her going to Clubbing. after that we had a Heart to HEart tok. actually i didnt trust him. but later on i tell myself i would understand as Jolene is hard on him. so i tell myself maybe he jus need to tok to somebody abt it. we ended the call.. things was going well until 2 nights ago. i realise that , that night conversation was a plot. i was very upset i sms sebastian. telling him that i was super dissapointed in him. and he started reply things like ~ This is my life, i lead my life with my own rules. i was hurt and angry, cause he is the one we aproached me to tell me his problem not me who called him n ask for problem. at that point i was angry i replied to sebas about saying her Gf is a Money face girl and stuff like that, ended up we both said nasty things to each other. He dared me to confront Jolene in FRont of the class.. and he allowed it to happen.. and replied sumthing like ~ if u let Jolene cry i not going to let u off. but the fact that is he is the one who allow it and if that happens.. as usual she will cry then is not i make her cry is he himself. after that night, i have thought abt it. wad for i ask the class when they know nothing abt this problem then i decided to tok to Jolene face to face. cause she dun dare to look into my eyes and tok to me that is y she always ask the her BF to tok to me. i approched her, i said, can i tok to u personally. she agreed, but in the end she still brought her bf along. after requesting him to leave for abt mins. he finally walk away. i tok to Jolene, i told her if she have any problem she can always come and tell me straight into my face dun have to tell the guyz abt it when they cant do anything. then i ask her, do u know abt the holiday call i recieve from her BF sebastian, she say No. then i say i have ppl telling me that u are spreading. then she finally said the truth., Yes.. then i asked her, was the problem solved before school close, she nodded, the she say ~ but i still wan to know y u call me a bitch. i replied.. cause i dun like u and the things u did behind me. i told her straight to her face, she was speechless. then i jus keep reminding her ~ if she have anything uphappy tell me. cause in the end is not my frens walks away from me is your fren walks away from u.. i accidentally let out some secret about wad sebas had said, but that moment i was thinking he dun even keep his promise why shd i, but in the end, i didnt betray him. then she walk away. we ended. when i was about to walk away, sebastian stop me, he wanted to tok to me personally, so we tok, he keep trying to dig out stuff and i told him off .. ~ one part i say is I treat u as Fren wad do u treat me as? i hear u out as i think u needed help. but in the end u LIED, it was a plot. we keep arguing, then i guess he jus speechless n walk away.. i tell myself i will jus pretend i dunno anyone called Jolene and Sebastian in my ITE life. i onli left one month plus to Graduate and we will not meet again. i jus want to enjoy myself with the rest of my class as i know they are worth my frenship.. i onli believe true frens will stay with u no matter wad others says as True fren know u better then others.

anyway over is alreay over. Cherrful rena is back again.

yesterday super not feeling well.. woke up had a bad headache and body ache cant even sit up. so i rest at home didnt come school.. but today i feel so much better, now having Boi's lesson. doing Flash... better get to work.. chaoz..

i'm back

2006-10-15T03:40:00.000-07:00

it's been days or i should say Weeks that i havent been blogging.. help me!!! i'm super stress... Project M8 is killing me.. "lord i jus pray that u will take care of me for this moment of time.. to let me go through this crisi with peace.. in jesus name i pray amen!!!" so life was alittle miserable for me as i have to handle my famly problems... for now all i care is my M8 n getting a rental flat to stay.. i'm moving off from where i am staying right now! anyway i get to know a few good fren during my work time in Metro Sengkang.. really had lotz of fun working with them.. okay tomorro school reopen.. see you guys in school.. love y a

anOther Wonderful day

2006-08-31T21:14:00.000-07:00

today is my last service inVemma.. pratically i have nothing to do.. but to blog here lor..
super duper tired.. as in my flu makes me tired... * why my nose still unwell *
haha... naughty nose... FLU FLU FLU... anyway in a while later i will be going down to meet sarah n lester.. decided to go for a walk at bugis... * today is my shopping day .. yippy...*
after that i going church then hubby coming to fetch me.. yeah.. so miss him lo... then dunno where.. for more detail.. to be continued...

sad Or happy

2006-08-30T05:30:00.000-07:00

* shd it b a GOOD news or a BAD news? *

today i lost my job in Vemma...

alittle starts to worry abt CASH FLOW again..

haha.. but the fact is i didnt do much in VEMMA..

my boss said

" we decided to get a FULLTIME designer,

cause when we need u most,

u not there when we have nothing for u but u are here..

i will call u upon project.."

anyway treat it as a blessing..

cause one thing i can spent more time on FYP...

back to TOday.. was sick for the past 2days..

* SICK SICK SICK *

anyway kinda miss ANDY.. wondering did he miss me...

* thinking *

but i DO MISS HIM...

* i love yOu *

What must i do to make her understand

2006-08-24T15:50:00.000-07:00

i'm troubled about my younger sister most of the time.. explaining n explaining.. when will she get things into his head.. please dont fool me out..

today 3.55pm.. my younger sister co-form teacher called to tell me about my sister lateness in school.. she reached school at 9am when she leaves the house at 6.30am.. the teacher was asking if we could meet up to tok abt her conduct in school.. actually i was kinda worried abt my father going down to see the teacher.. cause i scared he lose his control.. he might give my sister a big time.. wat shd i do? is there anythin i can do??
* GOD please tell me *

i'm Lost..

Hey wad a Day!!!

2006-08-23T19:16:00.000-07:00

>> TO BE CONTINUED<<

opps i guess i have forgotten my second half for yesterday..

back!!! hmmm... basically i was having a great time during BOI lesson..

cause we were watching the video we took...

OURS>> Beauty is in the EYE of the Beholder

* awesome * all of us think we really made alot of ppl Laugh out Loud

* HaHahaHahaHAhahaHaAHah *

special thanks to Sarah for being so sporting to participate in the actress role..

* SUPER SPORTING AWARD goes to SARAH LIM *

* SUPER HELPFUL AWARD goes to ZHAO YI *

he did a great job too... guess partly the laughter was from his acting...

I really admire her spontaniouship in acting... she is so Great..

n not forgetting my beautiful members who puts in LOTz of Effort..

GINA

ELLIS

JASMINE

SALIHA

n one more.. MYSELF...

haha... i LOVE my GRP video...... * yeah *

after that as usual getting myself to work... was still doing editting for the video..

ended ard 11pm.. super tired.. reached home.. bath n get ready to sleep..

* .........ZzzZZZZzzzZZz...... *

>> TOdaY <<

Well... Ms Rena was late for school n was lectured by Mr GRaham...

* keke * really la.. too tired.. totally forgotten about the time...

so today was having fun too.. as in..

morning lesson i was doing my GRAPHIC DESIGN project..

then we went down for lunch.. then carry on by IGV lesson...

BOI was adsent.. so was kinda Boring...

anyway we were having a boring lecture as in we were falling asleep..

but at some point we were learning some skill...

we enjoy when we have to sit down n think for the next project..

NEXT TALENT>> GEORGINA

* yeah *

after school.. help Sebby to Plug eyebrow..

then we went to tampines to do our realwork application form..

then we change our atm card to GO card..

* sebby was so happY *

then we chat alot.. n we have chocolate waffle.. * yummy *

athough we hardly have time for one n other n for today was onli a short period of time...

i really enjoy my moment with her.. she so GREAT..

* AMEN!! to have SEB as my SISTER of christ *

repent...

recently i am changing.. hmmm....

to a happier person but

more n more straight forward...

no GOOD...

* Lord, please forgive my sin in wadever i am doin.. i will repent to you O Lord..

give me the strength to change to a better person..

in Jesus Name i pray ...

AMEN!!! *

Tasky...

..wad kind of HUSBAND in HEAven u EXpect..

* Ooo... Rachel jus called Me... *

haha... so JIAO... hahah.. when i was toking Abt this topic that she gave she called!!!

* blessing AMEN !! *

hmm.. Pastor Rachel was SO SWEEt.. she oways there 4 ppl like ME..

> Pray For Pastor Rachel <

>>back to Tasky.. haha<<

* Lord i didnt want to expect much from u..

bascially jus wan a husband to be with my all the time..

to be there to hear my sorrows n hear me CRY..

to Love me .. so i can LOVE u more than ever..

to Protect me against all evils...

makes me realise the things i do wrong.. correct me..

Lead me to your Path of LIGHTs.. *

* I Love You, JESUS *

One MOre.......

My Hubby.. * I LOVE U TOO..*

hehe... i know he will be jealous if i dont mention this for him..

he was great.. no matter how tired he is he still calls me late at night to make sure

I'm HOME!!!!

n this week the * sPecial Phrase to Me was *

* Dont Neglect ur Studies *

he encourage me to do well from SCHOOL..

he leaves me to allow me to concentrate in class...

* I LOVE YOU *

remember the Promise we made..

If we can get together for 7 years...

* i will marry you *

.....END.....

Husband in Heaven

2006-08-22T22:13:00.000-07:00

>> Good Morning GOD,JESUS N HOLYSPIRIT <<

Morning 7.20am.. PU@qnsy called me...

* Yes GOod MOrning Baby *

i tot i was late for school because i forgotten that my lesson starts at 11am instead of 8am.. i went to have my breakfast in cafetria.. met raimy.. he disturb me by showing stupid faces.. * haha * not long later i met saray n fren came up to class, Havin Lesson now ~3D lesson... * boring * it doesnt interest in me anyway.. * haha * was toking to andy n he shared with me about this School Life when he was in POLY... he encourage me to stay forcus during school days.. well.. * praise the LORD * isnt it a blessing for today... still remember the service i went on friday...

* NO WEAPON FORMS AGAINT TO PROSPER YOU *

...

>> TO BE CONTINUED <<

yeah today

2006-08-21T12:08:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. today is a SUPER HOT day... i woke up 6.30am in the morning.. daddy fetch me to school... was in school early so i ate breakfast set in school... morning lesson was alright... then we have SW lesson.. we play netball then rest.. ate malay food for lunch.. then was tokin to Sebrina.. sharing with me abt her trouble.. * happy * she hardly speak to someone abt prob.. i'm glad she shAred.. st least now i know she felt better.. * pray for SEBRINA>> * keke.. now in M8 lesson blogging.. i'm going home.. too boring le... hahaha.... k la.. shall stop here then time to go home n rest... love u ppl...

wat a sunday

2006-08-20T22:10:00.000-07:00

today wasnt a great sunday for me.. cause so many aso many thing happens at home.. i was having a little miscommunication wif andy.. then we didnt tok much that day until he book in.. sending him to camp.. so sad * sobsobsob *... after that i recieve phone call from my sister saying that something happen at home.. i went to payah leba to fetch my sister home.. she was still in city plaza eating dinner.. so i walked at the fair prize alone aimlessly while waiting for my sister i was toking to andy.. i still very moody.. when my sister came.. we went home.. she told me abt wad happen.. something terrible.. the min i step home.. fan was broken apart.. then the phone rang.. my granny called.. i was starting naggin.. i tok to her abt wad happen then we ended up quarrelling.. i hide in the toilet for sometime.. then came out toking to andy then to get this right.. both of us okay le * smile * but i am still worried.. then my daddy came back very drunk.. i never seems him so badly drunk he didnt say a word jus went to sleep.. i know his hurt.. i dunno wad i can do.. i cant sleep early..i do my laundry n stuff.. sleep at 2.30am.. tired.. ZzZZzzz.....

Great Day

2006-08-20T18:41:00.000-07:00

Hey Peeps.. can't wait to share with you guys wad happens on Friday night.. i went for CELL group.. n God is so Awesome that the surmon jus HITs upon me.. friday i tok to Pastor Rachel about my problems.. we tok abt verses and u know wad.. as i couldnt find my bible.. Pastor Rachel got me some notes.. without knowing my bible was no where to be found.. isnt that incredible.. then we also tok abt GOD is our husband.. n she share with how she had a relationship with GOd.. n i was so IMPRESSED... she's so WONDERFUL... her relationship with GOd was so GREat.. after that we went for cell.. then Apostle preach thing that HITs me.. he preach abt DEPRESSION, FRUSTRATION n being GOD's BRIDE... isn't it miracle... i starting to LOVE god more each n everyday.. something i need to say " God i pray that u wil makes me f0rgive HIM (brother of Christ) pray that my frustration will be GONE in notime , in Jesus Name i Pray, AMEN!!!!"

saturday , Yesterday i had a great day too.. LIHAN called me out!! * so Happ * keke.. it's been a long long time we havent met one n other.. n we went out to bugis with my younger sister.. we walked ard took neo print n stuff.. we bought clothes, bag and * toot * ladies things.. haha.. then we ate KFC..was so FUN.. cause we were playing cheating games.. all of us were lying to trick on another.. hahhaa... was so funny.. is like all blurr blurr also dunno who is telling the truth.. hahahaha.. after that we went back.. after all it is a Great day for me to have LIHAN shopping with me...

now.. i am in my Boyfren hus... Slacking away.. he now watching TV.. i am here blogging.. keke.. later he is Booking in.. actually today i feel like going for a swim.. but i see him no mood then next time ba.. k la.. shall tellu guys more when we meet.. love ya

ShaKen Me

2006-08-18T18:01:00.000-07:00

yerterday was a Shocking day for me... when i was on my way home from work * onthephone* toking to andy.. as i walk under my block.. i met JUSTIN sitting under my block.. he was doing things like inserting Light Stick Fluid into at mini straw with a small brush in it.. to create a mini light stick.. he told me it was a surprised for me... so he asked me to go back first.. so i went back.. not long later he came up my doorstep n called me.. i went down to the voideck with him.. he gave me a BOX.. i asked him wad was it for... he say nothing jus for me.. * happy * cause i haven been recieving present for quite sometime.. after he left i went home.. doing my stuffs... then i went to open up the gift.. saw the light sticks was form into words.. * HOPE U LIKE IT * .. so nice.. was very interesting... then i recieved his sms saying that his handcraft wasnt very gd but it was his best... * hey Jus.. dont worry it was fabulous.. * he wrote a Message for Me on the box cover... i think the meaningful part is something like * hope through this lightstick will lead u out of darkness *.. underneath there is another small box... when i open up... i was SUPER DUPER shocked... he gave me an IPOD NANO.. * i almost blackout * was something i wasnt wanted to have one.. n i couldnt believe it that he actually gsve one for me.. * This is really a BIG SURPRISED * oh my!!!! i so Happy that i dunno how to express it out.. this is the first EX present i ever recieve.. i Felt so bad la... i have a message for HIM..

* Justin, Thank you so much for the present.. i really didnt expect u to get me a IPOD.. really.. but please next time dont spend your money on me.. must save it for yourself.. jus wan to tell u i really like the Present... thank you!!! *

hmmm... today i was having fun in class as i am doing my design.. n at the same time blogging.. * haha * cant wait to drop down my Happiness in this Dull blog.. keke.. * sparkles * .. Later i have design class then i am going to for Cell group.. k la.. g2g le... chaoz...

another day of MINE

2006-08-17T00:08:00.000-07:00

*YEAH* i finally finished my video editing yesterday night.. i stayed in my office until 12.15am... althought it's late but i finally get over and done with it for the past 3days.. * BE BLESSED * Last night, finally i get to tok to ANDY after his 3days fieldcamp.. *so MISS HIM*

Well... back to today.. woke up early in the morning at 5.30am.. due to my sister morning call from granny.. then i reached school about 8.30am.. was thinking *I'M LATE*.. guess wad i wasnt.. i was TOO EARLY.. haha lesson starts at 9am.. well.. i went down to get my breakfast.. havent been gettin myself a proper breakfast for a LONG LONG TIME.. * keke * basically was "DISTURBIN" my sweetie sisterz Sarah n Gina.. they are really FUN people to be with..

was updating my picys to the com..*Oo coOL oO* thanks to GINA for helping me.. today didnt do much work.. bascially jus doing my BLOG n Chatting away.. But the SAD thing is i didnt get to tok to DARLING SEBRINA maybe she jus too Busy to entertain me.. * sIGH * .. Later got to go to PARAGON to work... was a LAST MIN thing n i'm afraid i cannot make it on TIME... * GOD BLESS ME *... k shall stop here... LOVE YOU...

helpless ME

2006-08-16T10:48:00.000-07:00

it's been a long long time i havent been blogging.. i believe if u wan to blog then blog the truth.. right?... well... back to Me... days wasnt going very well for me.. recently i suffered from depression.. everytime i tok abt my famil, l shivered.. so many things in life that i cant take the pressure at some point of time in my life.. yes.. maybe i shall share wif u guyz...

My father wasnt discipline enough to come home on time when he is supposed to.. i have to call him 15mins before 12 to make sure he comes home on time.. i'm am always worried for him.. recently i overheard his conversation with my aunt that he will be in BIG TROUBLE.

i dont want to see him suffer again... i'm hurt.

My younger Sister, Sandra, she is 13yrs old still going through the rebellious period in life.. she starting to over do things, she doesnt listen to us, recently was caught stealling my father's money, was caught smoking, coming home extremely late like 9pm plus..etc.. almost everynight i reached home, i see things everywhere the house and my sister crying in one corner, father angrily sitting in the other corner.. n the worst thing is my father's gf keep adding fuel into the fire.. she doesnt listen to anyone in the family. she always thing frenz is more important to anyone else, she hates my father because she thinks my father always side his gf. going home after an exhausting day of school n work is tired enough, facing workstress is also a test for me and yet coming home have to see the saddest side of a family could be will make me feel worst..

i felt very useless.. i didnt have time for my family.. i neglect my sister.. i felt very bad.. my father wants to send my sister to girl's home.. i stop him.. Do u tink she will learn by throwing her into the girl home without caring for her feelings.. i dont want this to happen... not now nor ever...

My elder sister, Shini, married to a terrible husband who torture her by locking her at home with the baby.. forgotten abt her meals n coming hm 11plus, throwing 2 buns on the floor like feeding a begger.. make me feel sad for my sister.. she suffered through depression n tried to kill herself. that night after my bf n i visited her, she lands in the hospital for drinking bleach.. now she is find. but still struggling through without having enough money for the baby toiletries.. her terrible husband dont work n yet he stop my sister from working.. wad kind of guy is this.. i donno wad i can do to help my sister...

My Health, recently mentally n physically i'm getting ill... getting on bed at 2am n waking myself at 6am is starting to be a problem for me.. after all this problem that comes into my life.. i almost broke down... but thank GOD for sending HER,sebrina, to hear me out... n thank GOD for sending HIM, andy, to make me realise that there is always a solution out to every problems.. he enlighten me when he tok to me abt my implusived attitude towards my younger sister problem.. i should have taken a step back to look at the bigger picture n try to know y and wad is the reason that my sister is behaving like this n not by blaming her for her mistakes.. one thing he makes me someone when he said he wans to go through the burdon with me.. i love you dear.. after i have tok to my sister i finally realise, she is affected by our family, she hate my Aunt (father gf), she always seems like breaking our relationship with our father, she always make a big fuss out of a small problem... i hate her too.. but i told my sister it cant be helped.. we cant control our father's life.. live on with it..

that night i took up the courage to tok to my father about my sister, i think in someway he is starting to understand the situation my sister is in now.

i think there is a part u shd make for sandra. putting her into the girlshome will not make things better.. u will broke her heart for this family if u do that..

we always say we care for her.. but how much have to explain to her to make her understand.. by saying NO to her request will not make her understand.. u have to explain to her why n how.. have u ask her y she is like that.. have u ask her why she doesnt listen to you.. No.. u didnt gave her a chance when problem comes.. u blame her.. u didnt ask her.. u accused her at time becoz u listen to ur gf... she is still very young.. a family needs communication.. i'm trying..

(getting her a job to make her accupied).. Daddy please dont do that... u will make her work for money n she will neglect her studies.. she will work as much as she can to get wad she wans.. n for that her education will go down.. i was once like this.. i dont wan her to follow my footstep..

i can get her social work.. definitely not WORK... i will try to get someone she is more comfortable to tok to... my aunt goes again add fuelling..

i pray that things will be better for my family n my elder sister...

i think i need to tok to someone who can help me with my situation that i cant handle...

anyway this is the third day i havent get to tok to HIM due to his outfield.. I MISS HIM.. I REALLY DO>>

the break up

2006-03-09T18:55:00.000-08:00

on the 090306 (yesterday)... after work... 10pm... as usual extremely tired after a whole day of school and had to go to work.. wad kinda slack our way back to ah meng's house... halfway he said he was hungry so we went to the coffeeshop to buy some food... when we walked out of the coffeeshop.. he came out of frustration and ask me..

meng: "is it very tired to be with me?"
me: "no! i ws jus tired after school and had to work? it's been going on everyday in my life since i started school"
meng: "nevermind we go back to ur hus"
- we walked across the back carpark towards my hus.. he suddenly stopped.he said he is very tired and wanted to take a sit by the carpark... we sat in the middle part of the carpark.. we tok....
meng: "i realise my life is so pathetic... i dunno wad i do to make things right.. i tried my best to change myself... can we dont quarrel all the time?"
me: "all things doesnt starts from me? u r the one who is always so posessive, u lways start it all... today morning is a very good example... i choose to have breakfast with u and i told u to wait for me at the shop.. before i could reach the shop.. u scolded for not knowing u r standing outside my hus... how am i supposed to know whennu jus stand outside and not call for mi... ?"
meng: " nevermind.. "
he throw the food across the road...
me: "wad have u promise mi.... u never will throw ur frustration on me.. but now.."
meng" i'm not throwing at u.. but myself... i hate myself,... "
meng:"u also ... everything i call u... u will onli say 'orh' 'ok' 'ya'... u treat mi like an idoit... u dun care how i feel.. today i called u... u sound so pissed when i called u then u sound so in a hurry..."
me: " i told u i'm going to class.. but u insist not to put dwn the phone... then u angry with me... wad am i supposed to do"
meng: "is not the first time... after the break up in parkway.. u promise u will give me chance to change,.. but u never....... all the thing u promised to me were all lies...."
me: " i told u i hate to study and afraid if i didnt hears ur phone.. n u would scold me.. n when i stress i cant study... and at parkway u force mi to agree... i have no choice"
me: " i like a toy to u... i dun have freedom.. i dun wan a choice of mine... i cannot choose the path i wan to go.. i can onli be dragged away by u... "
meng: " no! (started shouting) i not playing u or treting u like a toy... i jus dun wan ppl to bully u"
me: " but when i am with u i'm not happy! would u rather see me happy then not"
meng: : " why.. why.. why.. because i throw temper at u..?"
meng: " u always wans to break with me... u always think abt my bad... u treat mi like u treat chee hau... u jus like ur mother..."
me: " anything u say....afterall that i said also no use.. u r jus not to let go of mi.. i'm jus like dog to follow through ur command... i hate my life... u r jus like forcing me to die cause the onli choice i can mke for myself is die "
meng: " pls dont leave me alone... i really love u... please..."
me: " meng.. i cannot go on like that..."
meng: " i know i now got no money go and find rich guy.. go go..." (pushed my bag)
me: " i never wan think of u as a rich boy.. i never takes to ur money... when i borrowed u and i returned... from the beginning of the relationship i stated clearly.. "
- he snatched my bag and took out my knife.. he pointed to his wrist.. and started crying... he said" sorry"
he attempt to kill himself... i snatch the knife way from him and almost cut my palm.. out of the sudden he pulled me.. and i ask where he wan to bring mi to.. he said " we go jump down together " he dragged mi and i scratched my leg and hand.. after he ran away.. i told him i'm gonna call his mother.... but then i realise that i dun have his mum's no... not long he came back and ask me not to call.. then he say even if i call his mum she wont come also.. he gave me the no. and i called... unexpected his mum says that she is too lazy to come down... even when i say his son wans to die.. she says nothing... i hung up...
me: " the O2 money i will return u... "
meng: "(angrily) NO NEED!! I THROW ONE.. I PAY!! OKAY!! WE BREAK!!"
Then i walked away... then he shout again and ask me to stop.. he stop me.. and started crying in front of me... asking me not to leave....
then i keep explaining to him... he pulled mi to the place where we first break-up.... and started crying badly.. he keep asking me not to leave by then it was already 12.40... i told him that " i believe that he is old enough to make decision,.. so i left him.. and walked back home... i change my clothes and lie on the bed... jus abt to close my eyes.. ah meng called mi from the door... i shocked and walk up.. he ask me to accompany him tok at the staircase.. i agreed.. he keep repeating those things that had happen before.. and he broke into tears again.. after that i went to sleep.. but the whole night i didnt sleep well.. today morning he came and fetch mi to school.. now i'm in class... so that is all for the day... i hope he will be well soon....

love meowmeow

.. cry T.T ..

2006-02-19T20:59:00.000-08:00

on sat 18th feb... it was a traumatic day for me.. and i was working in Guardian for a FULL day...
incident held: Next to Guardian Marine terrace

Date of incident: 18th feb 2006
Ppl involved: - ah meng (bf)
- boy (the drug addict)

ppl who call 999: none other than mE

report:
ard 1pm i heard ah meng and Boy were having an arguement.. i was shocked and was thinking ah meng might involved in fights.. knowing that ah meng is those "Chong Dong" type.. so i called the police.. very sad case is that ah meng turned ard and tell mi not to call the police.. i was kinda offened when i he told mi that.. i felt that i was being a kpo and i have no right to bother his life.. i was angry and i went back to work.. after that the police had reported everything.. ah meng called mi... i ignore his call.. he came to my workplace and ask mi to go outside tok.. i told him that i need time to calm down.. i told him i will tell him tonight n i dun wished to know wad had actualli happen.. maybe i was a little stubborn.. but i know wad i do is not wrong.. he keep forcing mi to tell him wad has he had he done that made me so angry with him.. he dragged mi.. so i walked out of the shop to tok to him.. we chat upstaire... then he started scolding and yelling at me... i was scared... he was so angry that he threw the 1068 dollars O2 to the wall.. i was so scared that i almost went crazy.. i sat on the floor.. he came to hug mi.. i pushed him... i was scared.. so scared.. i dunno wad had happen.. my whole brain went blank... i felt my life is going to end.. i almost headed my head to the wall.. wishing that i could bleed to death... my life is so fill of shit.. i dunno wad to do... i cried and cried,.. he keep holding both my wrist... till he relise that he had scared mi,.. he left... i was all alone at the staircase.. after sometime i walked back to my shop to work.. that day my brain keep haunting me the cracked sound of the O2... at that time i almost went crazy... that night i didnt sleep well.. i tossed and turned.... is not because i sad becasue of the O2.. is i scared wad i am in with this guy..

the next day i became better.. everything seems normal.. i have forgotten abt the phone.... i work as usual.. 25th will be my last day that i worked in guardian marine terrace... i hope after toking to ah meng abt him behaviour, thing wil be better.... god i pray u will stand by me..

love rena

hehe.... nothing much jus playing a fool

2006-02-16T17:31:00.000-08:00

hmmm.... valentine jus pass... it's been a long time since i ever gather up with my group of sister and bros... well.. wad to do i am workaholic.. hahah... but this year i kinda celebrated in my darling sebrina house... we made our way to tampines .. as some of them still need to buy something for the rest... so we went to sebrina house.. we gathered in sebrina bedroom while waiting for the food to be ready.... very surprised sebria gave mi a eeyore container with stuff inside.. keke.. so happy... relising that i havent been forgotten.. after eating and playing until 4pm.. i took a cab back home to meet ah meng,. i reached home.. have a nap till 6pm.. woke up bath then we went to toa payoh.. we took a train to bishan thinking that we can have some food before going to my sister place.. unfortunately we have to make our way back to toa payoh to have dinner that was already 10 plus when we finished the food in pastamania... we took a cab to my sister hus then chat with my sistertill 12 then me n meng took a cab home.. we enjoyed ourselves that day even we dont do much things.. happy valentine day

well... i'm finally back after so long

2006-02-13T09:06:00.000-08:00

it's been extremely long that i havent been blogging.. wad to do.. so many work.. so many school.. so many problem at home... how would i have time for this.. opps! i'm sorry... keke.. neverless i wouldnt forget all my loving sisters and bros.... hmmmm..... life kind getting more and more stress for me... i'm trying hard gers.. trying not to give up my life... and try to make it to the fullest... havent i seen those glittering stuff or fantastic stuff going on in shopping mall for a long long time... i jus have to stucked in the pathethic guardian... so much thing to worry... so much thing to do... so many people to care.. so many thing to bother... maybe life is like that.... there is nothing u can do.. but to give all ur best... studies are alright.. maybe 49% dunno, 20% not sure, 31% jus fine... but my ambition in life never fades... Designers Rocks my life... somthing i glad about my life that i was involved in World Skill Singapore... i was kinda stress because i'm afraid i am not up to those who have art foundation and design based... and wad do i have... nothing.. haha.. rena i know u are not easily beaten right.... keke...

this one month plus.. morning 5.40am i have to wake up and make sure my sister wakes up for school.. and making sure she leaves the house on the right time... then went back to sleep... 7am.. even before i opened my eyes.. i got hear my aunt complains abt my sis... then i have to study in the morning till noon rushed back to work.... during work i have to face my granny coming down to my work place to make a scene... jus because of my sister... after work i have to entertained ah meng then got to face my granny nags... wait for my granny to reached home.. as i was rather worried abt her journey back home... then washed my clothes and stuff.. sleeps at 1am... the whole night rest only lasted for 4hrs.. i turned out falling ill... fever on off... flu on off.. body aching... but i have no understanding from my family.. everyone seems like going against mi... everything i question my sister why she is late for home.. my granny would scold vulgar at mi... and when things goes wrong all the blame will onli goes to mi... i hope somehow or somewhere my dad will know that i need him to be here with mi... i miss u daddy...