Monday, April 09, 2007
RELIEF ME!!
i wanna hold your hand at 9:47 AM0 audiences watched us take the first step
emily is me!
nothing to hide no more.'
i called lily=lixian
i talk to her. i ask her " i guess u have already know that i know abt u and andy(eddie)" she say ya.. i told her "although i duno why is all this happening. but since it happen. there is nothing i can do, i jus hope that we can tok things out cause i dun wan to see us like that because of him. i dun wan to see us working together but feel so awkward seeing one another. cause we have to work together in future." i ask her " do u love andy?" she replied " ok la, actually i was jus playing him in the begining becoz he is a bad guy.. and also i wan to get over my ex" i was shocked. i was thinking maybe she said that to make me feel better. but is not working anyway. " i told her, dun scare me with this ans, cause i told andy dun hurt u and i also dun wish u to hurt him too.. anyway i am not here to stop ur relationship w him, jus wan to make sure we have sort thing between u and me cause i have always wanted to work w u that is y i convert to full time. so wadever that had happen i will still send my blessing to u both" she say she kinda feel bad, but now she is happy now. i glad she is now. and i hope things will work well for her, i also tell her abt i found out andy likes her very much.. she ponder but she will understand one day.. cause i see alot of chnges in andy. i told lixian." if he is willin to change for u, and if one day he decide to settle down. he will be a great husband cause he will know how to protect his love ones and i decide to change no so believed she also doesnt wan me to contac andy, so we have decide to keep this among ourselves. i know this is a hard time for me. cause i know whenever i am upset and even tears, maybe they are hugging and kissing happily. so i tell myself i dun wan to tears for this. jus accept the facts and move on. although i always say i will move on.. it's hard for me. cause andy is the who make me dare to love again. after work i went drinking w vivian again. we din drink alot only one jug but is more like singing n stuff.. so beside all this a guy actualli offered me a game of pool. so we played. actually he wanted to sing me a song but it will be too late. so i left.. sumtimes i think abt this relationship. i asked myself. " all my frens ask me to let go and move on, cause i will find a better guy. " but will i get the best endin 4 myself? or shd i jus follow my heart. too late anyway.. too late to turn back. everything is gone.. i guess i wont call him anymore.. maybe no contaction w him, i might get over faster.. i am jus afraid the day if i work w lixian and andy came to fetch her. wad am i supposed to do.. pretend nothing happen and not see him. i hope i will feel better by then. give me sumtime i will be okay. although is hard but i know he is jus a passer by in my life. he left. probably after this. i wan to learn to live a SINGLe life. --> " i will face the fact and move on, it's hard but i noe i will pull through.." i wan the rena who carry a million smile back again. i am touched by my many years fren zhihao. although we hardly contact but he take care of me all the while.when i am down, he sms me from taiwan " love yourself like the way i love u, i will find u when i am back" i'm very touched really. he made me stronger each times. i will learn to live better and be a better person in future and i will not make the same mistake i made before. today zhihao back in singapore but he din forget the promise and he sms me! he is busy now , still in his office.. but we will meet up as soon as he is free. i would like to thanks all my frens for stayin by my side all this while -> micole, melissa, eunice, yilong, justin, sarah and zhihao. without u guys i dunno how am i going to pull through this one month. i love u all..
to lixian" although al this things is happening. i wish u all the best. i cant bare to hate u . in fact i also wan the best 4 u, take care.. happy workin in future days to come"
...... rena will be back again .....
nothing to hide no more.'
i called lily=lixian
i talk to her. i ask her " i guess u have already know that i know abt u and andy(eddie)" she say ya.. i told her "although i duno why is all this happening. but since it happen. there is nothing i can do, i jus hope that we can tok things out cause i dun wan to see us like that because of him. i dun wan to see us working together but feel so awkward seeing one another. cause we have to work together in future." i ask her " do u love andy?" she replied " ok la, actually i was jus playing him in the begining becoz he is a bad guy.. and also i wan to get over my ex" i was shocked. i was thinking maybe she said that to make me feel better. but is not working anyway. " i told her, dun scare me with this ans, cause i told andy dun hurt u and i also dun wish u to hurt him too.. anyway i am not here to stop ur relationship w him, jus wan to make sure we have sort thing between u and me cause i have always wanted to work w u that is y i convert to full time. so wadever that had happen i will still send my blessing to u both" she say she kinda feel bad, but now she is happy now. i glad she is now. and i hope things will work well for her, i also tell her abt i found out andy likes her very much.. she ponder but she will understand one day.. cause i see alot of chnges in andy. i told lixian." if he is willin to change for u, and if one day he decide to settle down. he will be a great husband cause he will know how to protect his love ones and i decide to change no so believed she also doesnt wan me to contac andy, so we have decide to keep this among ourselves. i know this is a hard time for me. cause i know whenever i am upset and even tears, maybe they are hugging and kissing happily. so i tell myself i dun wan to tears for this. jus accept the facts and move on. although i always say i will move on.. it's hard for me. cause andy is the who make me dare to love again. after work i went drinking w vivian again. we din drink alot only one jug but is more like singing n stuff.. so beside all this a guy actualli offered me a game of pool. so we played. actually he wanted to sing me a song but it will be too late. so i left.. sumtimes i think abt this relationship. i asked myself. " all my frens ask me to let go and move on, cause i will find a better guy. " but will i get the best endin 4 myself? or shd i jus follow my heart. too late anyway.. too late to turn back. everything is gone.. i guess i wont call him anymore.. maybe no contaction w him, i might get over faster.. i am jus afraid the day if i work w lixian and andy came to fetch her. wad am i supposed to do.. pretend nothing happen and not see him. i hope i will feel better by then. give me sumtime i will be okay. although is hard but i know he is jus a passer by in my life. he left. probably after this. i wan to learn to live a SINGLe life. --> " i will face the fact and move on, it's hard but i noe i will pull through.." i wan the rena who carry a million smile back again. i am touched by my many years fren zhihao. although we hardly contact but he take care of me all the while.when i am down, he sms me from taiwan " love yourself like the way i love u, i will find u when i am back" i'm very touched really. he made me stronger each times. i will learn to live better and be a better person in future and i will not make the same mistake i made before. today zhihao back in singapore but he din forget the promise and he sms me! he is busy now , still in his office.. but we will meet up as soon as he is free. i would like to thanks all my frens for stayin by my side all this while -> micole, melissa, eunice, yilong, justin, sarah and zhihao. without u guys i dunno how am i going to pull through this one month. i love u all..
to lixian" although al this things is happening. i wish u all the best. i cant bare to hate u . in fact i also wan the best 4 u, take care.. happy workin in future days to come"
...... rena will be back again .....