Monday, October 12, 2009
i finally go through my Operation today
i wanna hold your hand at 10:10 AM0 audiences watched us take the first step
extremely stressful day... on my way to the hospital, my legs turn wobbly.. guess i am to nervous... reached the surgery clinic with dar.. when my turn has come.. i have to go in with a indian nurse that i tried hard to understand every word that comes out of her mouth.. goodness.. i was asked to change to the robe. and i was brought up to level 2.. i was asked to lied down on a bed and the doc and nurses were helping me to pluck water bags to ease my hydration... and is a real painful session.. the nurse couldnt find a suitable veins... and she plucked it in.. my tears started rolling down... and it was unsuccessful, the doc came to re pluck the needle.. second time that i have to go thru this pain.. not long later i was pushed to the operation theatre.. seeing myself under 2 big lights, 6 to 8 nurses surrounded me... i couldnt stop shivering..the room was cold that my feets lay still... i saw the bed with 2 rest support for leg, i almost burst out of tears.. i was trying hard to control my emotion of fear.. the nurses and doc were struggling giving me oxygen.. as there are some machinery faults... before the operation start.. i was asked to breath in the oxygen with med that put me to sleep within mins... i was totally knocked out... the next moment when i wake up, it was 2 hours later.. i found myself in another place.. and my whole body was weak and strenghtless.. i couldnt control my movement.. everything was numb.. the moment i woke up i started to tear.. dun ask me i dunno y.. i couldnt even talk.. i was den transfered to another room.. and a very nice nurse came check up on me and offered to give me some water... she fed me with straw and keeps my lip moist... and i continue to rest.. not long later i was feeling much better and i requested to see dar.. the moment i woke up... i wanted to see was him.. the nurse ask me to change and brought me to see him.. the moment i see him... i burst out in tears... i felt secure in his arm... he helped me to get my medication and took me back... we went for haircut before we get home.. it was raining heavily and dar hugged me and sheltered me while looking for cab. it was cold and dar dried my hand and leg with his hankerchef. and when i am back i was totally knocked out until 7 plus.. my dizziness is still there... but as long as i dun do too active stuff i should be fine... i guess i getting tired now.. got to sleep .. i love u dar